A Post in Two parts.

*Very Very long post alert* Read at ur own discretion,lol...

Sorry guys for not putting up this post earlier. Just been caught up with so many other stuffs. I haven’t been very happy too. Yea, O is the cause, who else? Fineboy agbero, oya gloat all you want, lol…

Am sure most of you already know that we were blessed with a long holiday these past days. FIVE WHOLE DAYS to rest and play! It was meant to be a wonderful one. I made so many plans. Plans on how I and O would spend the holiday together, enjoying each others company. Something which we haven’t been able to do in a while cos of his crazy work schedule. He is always working, even most weekends so you see why I was very excited about the holidays especially as it coincided with their bank’s financial year end and he had promised me that we would have enough time to spend with each other.

Things didn’t go as planned. We had one of our worst lovers tiffs during the period and well, yea the hols turned out to be a sad, boring and depressing one for me. I don’t know how it was for him. I dont know If he was as miserable as I was, but then he stayed away so I guess he was comfortable with the situation.

Why am I rambling?

I am supposed to gist you guys how the meeting with Sister Prayer warrior on Friday went. Okay I better start with that gist first, will still get to I and O’s issues later.

This post will be in two parts.

PART 1- MEETING WITH S.P
Friday morning, I didn’t go to work. I dressed up as decently as I could(Not that I don’t dress decently before o, just that I needed to polish up my good girl image,lol…). In my long gown, jacket and scarf, I drove down to Sister Prayer’s place. Incidentally, She lived in my vicinity so it was more like a 5mins drive.
My friend had told me she starts to see people from 9a.m so I wanted to get there on time cos I assumed there were going to lots of people there(you all know how our Naija peeps love prophecy and miracles) and I didn’t want to be the last on the line.

I got to Sister Prayer’s house at about five mins to Nine. It was a nice looking compound with a big white house. It wasn’t the usual prayer house setting. She held her prayers and consultations with people in her living room. It was more like a group of close family friends having a tea party thing, u get? I discovered that it wasn’t a crowd affair. All through the time I was there up till when she finally saw me, there were only about 8 of us. Three I had met there when I came and four others who came later. I shouldn’t have worried about coming late and being last in line cos there was no line. I learnt from one of the ladies I met there that sister prayer didn’t start her office till 10a.m so I had to wait one extra hour after I got there. I soon drifted off to sleep while waiting. Don’t blame me, the cushion was plush,lol…

From the look of her home, It was obvious Sister Prayer and her family were not hungry people. I remembered my friend telling me that she didn’t accept money or gifts from people. She always said that Jesus was providing for her family and she didn’t need anyone’s money. That helped to reduce my skepticism cos I was always wary of those prayer warriors that ask you to bring money for all sorts of things ranging from oil to candles and all what not. Some even tell you to pay for people who will fast for you if you cant do it urself, imagine!

Back to my gist…

At about 10a.m, Sister prayer(let’s call her S.P from now) came into the living room. She wasn’t as old as I had expected. She looked to be in her early forties. She greeted everyone and asked that we knelt down for prayers. Sorry, I didn t menton this earlier. S.P is catholic which was one reason I agreed to go see her. I am also catholic and I can tell you that in the catholic church, stuffs like prophets, visioners, prayer warriors are not that common. The church frowns at them not cos it is wrong or anything but because they believe that a lot of times, it is difficult to discern btw those who are working with the power of God and the fake ones who are working with the devil so before the church recognizes a person to be a prophet/prayer warrior they must have done a lot of investigations spiritually and otherwise to be sure he/she is working under the dictates of the holy spirit. I decided to go see S.P cos my friend also told me that the priests in my parish recognized her and were aware that she held prayers and counseling sessions in her home.

After the prayers, she started to call people one after the other to a corner of the living room(the dining area) where she had set up a mini-office.
Soon enough, it got to my turn. After introducing myself, I explained the reason I was there. I was having a lot of suitors and I needed to know the will of God concerning my marriage. She smiled and spoke very softly(She had the softest voice). She talked about how first of all, I needed to amend my life and get closer to God in prayers. She asked about the last time I received communion which I must confess had been a long time (Una no say aphro na big sinner now. Number 1 sin-FORNICATION,it’s a sin whether we like to admit it or not).
We talked for a while. During the discussion, she made me see reason why I needed to go to confession and renew my relationship with God all over. She also gave me some prayers to say for a month after which I should come back to see her and by then she would have a message from God for me.
It wasn’t what I had expected. I mean, I had expected her to lay hands on me or something and start seeing visions or something but it wasn’t like that. It was more like a conversation with a friend. She made me feel very comfortable and after the session, my heart was made up that she was for real. I must add tho that while she was talking, I was wondering what to do with O cos if I go to confession, I couldn’t continue in the same sin. I couldn’t continue making love with him although am not sure if kissing and touchery is also out of the question.
Guys, I need your opinion on this. Am thinking, if he is really sincere, it shouldn’t be a problem, right?

I haven’t started the prayers yet. I plan to go for confession this weekend then start the prayers afterwards.

Okay, so that was how my meeting with S.P went.

PART 2- HOLIDAY QUARREL
O had told me some time past that his mum was eager to meet me and he wanted me to meet her on Sunday(last Sunday). I agreed.

So Sunday morning, after church, He called to say he was coming to get me in the afternoon. I was apprehensive. What if she didn’t like me? What if I didn’t like her? He waved off my fears saying she loved me already and It was just a formality.

So I got dressed up, looking like a cute, good girl in my white shirt and red top,lol…

To cut long story short. The meeting with his mum went well. we hit it off rightaway. She regaled me with gists about O from when he was a kid. It was obvious she thought the world of her son. I laughed hard when she said “My son is a hot cake o!” I responded “Mama, I am a hot cake too o…ask my mama” All in all, it was a fun meeting. She brought out a bottle of wine and asked O to say a prayer over it. It was funny cos I didn’t know he could pray like dat. After the prayer, we shared the drink while listening to his mum's non-stop gists.

O stylishly whispered in my ears that we had to leave cos his mum would go on and on if we let her. Hugs and bye-byes done, we left for the mall to see a movie.

We didn’t do the movie again cos it was too late when we got there and I didn’t want to stay out too late. So we decided to do some window shopping in some of the stores there. While walking around the stores, I noticed O wasn’t looking bright and he wasn’t responding to me like before. I kept asking what was wrong with him and he kept saying “nothing, I’m okay”. It was soon obvious that he wasn’t okay and I kept badgering him to tell me what was wrong. After much pressure he told me he wasn’t feeling too well, he was feeling dizzy. I insisted we sit down somewhere so he could rest. After some time, I asked if he was feeling better and he said yes. It was getting late so we had to leave. I offered to drive us home even tho I don’t drive a manual car but he refused saying he could manage. As we walked to the car park, I noticed he kept wincing so I asked again how he was feeling. He didn’t reply. I kept asking but he wasn’t talking.

On the drive back home, I asked again. He still didn’t talk, just kept wincing like he was in pain. Then I asked If there was anything I could do to make him feel better. He said No, and that just being there was enough. Seeing as he didn’t want to talk anymore I decided to keep quiet but in my heart I was feeling sad and miserable cos I didn’t like to see him like dat.

At a point, during the drive he spoke:
“Aphro, why are you sulking? Be yourself, sing, dance for me like you used to”
But I wasn’t in the mood for singing and dancing so I replied “I don’t feel like…”
We didn’t talk to each other after that although I kept sneaking glances at him. He had stopped wincing and was beginning to look okay. I soon drifted off to sleep only to wake up when he drove into my close. I turned to look at him and he asked “So have you finished sulking?” I was like “I wasn’t sulking, just felt that you didn’t want to talk so I kept quiet”
Next he started talking about how uncaring I was and how I was supposed to know what to do to make him feel okay. I was like "What did you expect me to do? You weren’t even talking to me. When I asked how you were feeling, you wouldn’t respond. I just assumed you wanted to be left alone"

I don’t even know how it happened but next thing, he was screaming at me“Stop it aphro, just stop it! I am fed up of this attitude of yours. It doesn’t always have to be about you everytime"….I was shocked at his outburst. This wasn’t the first time he was making that statement about it being all about me always.
“All about me? You keep saying this everytime when it is really you who makes it all about you everytime…” I tried to stop the tears but they were already flowing. When he saw I was crying, he reached for my hands and stroked them while I cried on in silence. I finally pulled myself together and said quietly “I should be going”. He nodded and I got down from the car. No goodbyes, no kisses, nothing.
Maybe I shouldn’t have left that way but I felt hurt at what he had said. There I was trying to reach out to him, if possible bear some of his pain and he wasn’t responding to me. Maybe I shouldn’t have given up easily, maybe I should have tried another approach to make him feel better but one thing I know is I never make it all about me like he said.

Later when I had calmed down, I sent him a text.
“Hope you got home safe. Sorry for this evening. I really wished I could do some thing to lessen ur pain but sadly I couldn’t be for you what you wanted. I want ur happiness always but I may not be the girl for you. Loved meeting ur mum anyway, she is cool. Good night”

His reply didn’t come until after I had slept. I saw his missed calls and text the next morning.
“Nice touch about you not being the girl for me. It’s very amusing especially after just meeting my mum. Trying to tell me something?”

Later that Monday he called on the phone. Our conversation went something like this:
O: How are you? Haven’t you been seeing my missed calls?
Me: I have…
O: So? You couldn’t call back or what?
Me: I didn’t have credit(Lie)
O: Okay. So what did you mean by you not been the girl for me?
Me: Just what I meant. That maybe we are not meant for each other. I have never been a quarrelling person but with you, its almost as if we are always quarrelling over the littlest things
O: Oh yea? You know what Aphro? If that’s the way you see it, then do what you want.
The line went dead. He dropped the phone.
I couldn’t believe it. Did he just drop the phone on me? I wanted him to apologise for making me cry yesterday and here he was dropping the phone on me. I made up my mind, I wasn’t going to call him. If that’s the way the relationship would end, then so be it.

Meeeen, this has got to be my longest post ever!

To wrap up this gist, he didn’t call back. I didn’t call him too so the rest of Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday was spent with me wallowing in depression, resisting the temptation to call him and wishing he would call. I had to drag myself out on Wednesday to go see a movie although it wasn’t fun without him. I even sent him a text to wish him a happy independence day which he didn’t reply.

Thursday morning, I finally called him. I was upset he hadn’t bothered to check on me or even reply my text. He couldn’t give any excuse and apologized for not replying or calling. Later he sent me a text:
“Happy Independence day my love. This text is dated 01/10/08”

Can you believe this guy?!!!

Maybe I should just forget about this whole love business and settle with B.G, K or Bobo Nice.

The stress is too much!

Ur opinion guys?

O or X?

Helloooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!
The truant is back!
Yes o, no be for only school na im person dey be truant o. I have given myself the title-“Ogbonge truant of Blogville”,lol…
First of all, let me apologize to those that haven’t seen me at their blogs. Really am truly sorry but you know the reason now…work! I dey try small sha to pop in once in a while but it’s not been easy I must confess. I hail those who are able to update everyday and check all the blogs cos e no easy ra ra…

Secondly, I’ll like to thank everyone who drops by to read and comment. I appreciate all of you and y’all make me look forward to coming here everytime.

Okay that done. Now to give u the latest gist.

O finally broke the silence by Monday evening. He sent a text asking how I was and all. I replied his text telling him I was doing fine and asking after his affairs too. A few minutes after I sent the text, he called. I guess he was probably waiting for the green light(my reply) lol…

We spoke at length. He apologized for blanking me out and I accepted his apologies. However, I told him I didn’t like his way of cutting me out each time we had an argument and he promised he was going to stop doing that.

So we made up.

I haven’t spoken about X for some time now and it’s not becos we haven’t been in touch. We have been seeing each other; you all know his office is just opposite mine so he comes in regularly to say hi. Then again we live in the same vicinity so he comes around to the house sometimes. I must admit that I haven’t been discouraging him. Truthfully, he has been exceptionally good to me. Really caring and all…it’s almost like we are back to the way we used to be.

Am sure peeps like Charizard and LG go don dey frown by now,lol…

Okay I confess, I have started liking X all over again o. Maybe its becos O has been acting sme-sme of late and X has been like the perfect boyfriend model. I don’t know if that’s the reason but I sha know I am liking the guy even though my likeness never reach the point wey I go dey accept im sexual advances,lol…

Sometime last week, X was in my house and my folks had all gone out. We were watching TV together when small time bobo come begin to dey rub my body and come dey try to kiss me. I put on this fierce face and told him to “Stop... I don’t want!” Then I moved over to another couch. The bobo didn’t like it but wetin im go do? True am feeling him but not to that level yet. Man must tread cautiously abeg and O still dey there sef.

Anyway some times when we are together and O calls. I see the look X gives me but I sha ignore him. Once, I got a text from O and as I was reading it, I forgot X was there and I was smiling this goofy smile. When I finish reading and looked up, X was looking at me with a funny look on his face. I asked him “What?” and he said “That was a guy’s text that is making you smile abi?” I didn’t reply.

Then I asked him a question.

“Are we back together, what are we really doing?”
He says. “Yes we are back together babe”
Am like, “How did that happen…you do remember I told you there was someone in my life?”
He goes. “Yes I do and now you mention it, we need to talk about it. I noticed you have been receiving phone calls from some guy and text messages too. I know you’ve said it before but I didn’t believe you. Now I want to hear it from you again. Do you have another guy?”
I look at his face and see the seriousness. “Yes I do, am seeing another guy”
He looks like he had just been slapped and I noticed he tries to pull himself together and give me that macho attitude that guys give.
“Okay so now we need to get this settled finally. You have been with me and now you are with this guy. I want you back, in fact I want to marry you but I don’t want to be the second guy in your life. It’s either me or that guy. I want you to choose now so we can sort this once and for all”

The last time this came up between X and I , I somehow got out of it, now this is looking really tight!

Most of you probbably think i should tell X off and stick with O but It's not that easy. I couldn't! At that point when X asked me to choose, I realized that I still feel something for him a lot of things flashed through my mind. I remembered when we used to date and how good and caring he always was. X always went out of his way to ensure i was happy. He never gave me attitude like O does sometimes. Even when I misbehave he is always quick to forgive and forget. Do I really want to give up X for O?

And then I remembered the last time I was with O. That was a day after we had made up over the phone. We hung out after work and he had apologized all over again, saying he was going to put in more effort to make our relationship work.
I had asked him the ultimate question most unserious guys hate to hear. “What do you want out of this relationship”. I didn’t mean to pressure him to say he wanted to marry me o, I just wanted to psych him up a little.
His response was: “I really care about you babe and want you in my life but I want us to take this one day at a time”

O wants to take things a day at a time.
X wants to marry me today today

What do I want?
I want to marry a man that I love and respect and who will love and respect me forever.

The question now is who will that man be? O or X.

O hasn’t proposed o and X seems to be getting impatient for an answer.

Una fit help me for this one?

Happy weekend everyone!

SILENT TREATMENT

I’m truly sorry for leaving y’all hanging like hangers(lol) since the last time I posted. You know how it is with work and other stuff that take one’s time now ;). So am responsible for making you guys drink countless bottles of soda and lots of popcorn too?lol… Eh ya…and the ladies were supposed to be on a diet too…chineke! Aphro see what you’ve caused now,lol…they’ve all gone and added more pounds…oya I declare seven days fasting for all of you, that should take care of the excess weight,lol…

Okay on to serious matters now, am sorry to inform y’all that ur wait for the BIG DEED is over. No…I didn’t do it yet and may never will. In fact the truth is that we may never get to know how well small things can perform anymore:(
O and I may never work out!

By now am sure you are all wondering what am going on about.

Hold your breath. I’ll give you gist.

So last Wednesday-the last time I posted-when O came to pick me up for lunch from the office and I was so excited about it. Well, things didn’t work out as planned. Just as I was about rounding up the work I had at hand and gearing up to go ask for permission from my boss to take the rest of the day off. I got a call from one of our clients to attend to some urgent brief. There and then I knew there was no way I was running away from the office especially as there was no one to delegate the job to.

So there I was attending to the client’s brief and O was sitting opposite my desk leafing through some newspapers. He had this bored look on his face so I wasn’t surprised when he asked to leave so he could attend to some other stuffs. He said I should call him as soon as I was through with work so he could come pick me up. I thought it wasn’t a bad idea at least he would be utilizing his time better than just sitting there doing nothing in my office.

My people na so I come dey office dey attend to work o…time come dey go! I kept glancing at my watch miserably but there was nothing i could do...i was stuck!

You won’t believe that I was only able to round up my work by few minutes to 7pm. It was crazy! I felt so bad then I remembered I hadn’t called O as I promised. He also hadn’t called since he left.

So I called. As soon as he picked up I started apologizing, saying how sorry I was that my work had to spoil our plans and all. Then I asked where he was and if he could still make it down to my office. I felt we could still do dinner since lunch had been impossible. He said he was very far from my office and couldn’t come down so I said, “cool…no stress…I’d just go home then”
But then things didn't end there. O went on to say that he had taken the two days off (that day was the second day. He had come the previous day to my office but didn’t spend much time cos he was just coming from the hospital and said he needed to rest. I had had no qualms about it and urged him to go home) just because of me…because he wanted to spend some time with me and I didn’t have his time at all.

I replied that it wasn’t true cos the reason he had taken time off work was cos he was ill and not just cos he wanted to spend time with me.
I didn’t bargain for his outburst. He was really angry that I said that. According to him, I didn’t appreciate what he did by leaving his office for two days because of me and there I was telling him it was because of his illness. He ranted on while I was just wondering what the rant was all about. I felt he was taking everything too far so I mumbled “Issues…drama”. He stopped talking for a minute and asked “What did you just say?” I replied “I said "Issues…drama”

Before I go on friends, I must explain what I meant by that “issues…drama” statement. The thing is that we are always fighting over minor issues and I keep telling him that we have too much issues and drama in our very young relationship. So that was why as he went on about how I wasn’t appreciative and all, I mumbled “Issues…drama”. Get it now?

Okay so back to my gist. When I said what I said. He now grew even more angry and upset and went on this time about how am trying to push him away and succeeding. Then he said the one that hurt me the most “Maybe it because of the fact that a lot of guys are after you that’s why you are acting this way”. I felt there was absolutely no need for that statement but as is usual with me, when am angry I try not to say a word cos I could say something I’d regret later on. So after talking he was like “let me leave you cos I have nothing else to say to you” And I was like “Okay bye”. Then he said “is that all you have to say” and am like “what else do you want me to say? I have nothing to say” then he cut the line.

All these happened on Wednesday evening o

So later that night during happy hour. I called him. I wanted us to talk about the argument we had earlier and I was in the mood to apologize for everything even though I didn’t see what I said/did to deserve all his rant. So I called and it rang severally but he didn’t pick up. I wasn’t perturbed cos I thought he was probably asleep and wasn’t expecting my call.

The next morning, Thursday morning, I sent him a text:
“Hello Baby. How are you doing this morning? Feeling better? Called you last nite but you were probably fast asleep. Just wanna wish you a great day. Take care.”

I was hoping he’d have gotten over our argument the previous day and would reply my text but he didn’t. All day, my hands itched to dial his number but I suppressed the urge. I wanted to see if he would call. He didn't.

By Friday evening. I hadn’t received a call or text from him but I couldn’t suppress the urge to call him any longer so I dialed his number. It rang repeatedly and he didn’t pick up. I waited a while and dialed again. Same thing happened. He didn’t pick up. Now I was sure he was deliberately refusing to take my calls.

I was hurt. Why does he always act this way. We have a problem and instead of sorting it out, he decides to cut me off. This wasn’t the first time he’d be doing this and I was getting fed up!

Saturday morning. I woke up depressed and wanting to talk to him and get things sorted out once and for all but after unsuccessfully dialing his number and getting ‘number not available’, I decided to send another text:
“ Hmmm…u get mind o. I don’t know how u do it…carrying grudges for days. Anyway just wanted to talk but obviously u don’t want to. Take care”

It wasn’t until later in the day-towards evening that I got a reply from him:
“I’m not carrying any grudge. It’s just that I feel that no matter what I do, u don’t believe that I truly care for you. Your comment about drama and issues wasn’t nice too”

Shio! What is this guy talking about? Caring truly for me? Is not calling or taking my calls for three whole days, his own way of showing how much he truly cares for me? If that was what caring for someone meant then i don't want to be cared for o!

Anyway so I got his text but I didn’t reply it. It was obvious he was still angry about what transpired between us but then I wasn’t bothered anymore. He isn’t the only one who can do the silent treatment thing. I have decided am not going to call him and if this is the end of our relationship, so be it. I don’t even want a husband who I’ll be begging anytime we have a small argument.

I also want to be spoilt and pampered jare!

Just in case, you care to know. He hasn't called up till this moment.

O's Issues

These past few days, I have been tempted so many times to come online and update my blog but I wasn’t just able to find the time to do so. Things have just been crazy and I have been very busy.
So much has happened since I last posted and I can’t tell all with this post but I’ll try and update y’all as much as I can. Where do I start from now sef?

Okay, let me start with O.
I told you guys that he had called last week Monday to tell me he had a surprise for me. Well na so I dey dey wait for surprise o, monday passed.

Tuesday, I arrived the office to be told that my boss had called in sick and asked that I represent him at some event that day. I quickly discharged some of my duties and when it was time, I left for the event. Boss had said it was a Launching or something of the sort. I wondered what it was that they were launching. I didn’t realize he had meant Luncheon and I was the one who misunderstood him so I was delighted when I arrived the hotel where the event was scheduled to hold only to find that it was a buffet lunch organized by one of the media houses to appreciate those of us in the P.R sector. Who no like beta thing? Na so una sister just start to dig in o. I sampled almost everything that was on display and they all tasted really nice. I was still enjoying my meal when my phone started ringing and I glanced at it to find that it was O calling me. I quickly answered the call.

“hello baby, guess where…” I was still talking…the excitement in my voice, when he cut in.
“Aphrodite where are you??” I was surprised at the urgent tone in his voice. Wondering what was up, I replied “Am at P Hotel for a buffet”.
“Buffet?” he didn’t sound impressed. “Anyway I’m just coming from your office, I came with L to see you and was told you went out”. L was his elder sister.
“Eh…ya, you came with L and I missed seeing her…I had to come represent my boss at this luncheon…”
He didn’t let me finish. “So why didn’t you tell me you were going out?”.
I was shocked. Which kain question be dat one now? I couldn’t hold my tongue. “Why didn’t I tell you I was going out? So I have to tell you before I leave my office now or what?”
“What do you mean by that? No you don’t have to tell me anything, enjoy ur buffet, bye” and he cut the phone.
For a few seconds I just stared at my phone wondering what just happened.
Later, when I got back to the office. I called him back. I told him that I didn’t understand his anger since it wasn’t like he had told me that he was coming with L and I left the office without telling him. He insisted I shouldn’t have talked to him the way I did, telling him that I don’t have to tell him anytime I leave my office. I didn’t see what I said wrong and told him so. We argued a little while and when I realized that things were getting heated up I told him that I had to attend to some other issues and ended the call.

We didn’t speak again that day. He didn’t call and I didn’t call too.
Wednesday came, he didn’t call. I didn’t either.
Thursday still no word from O. I wasn’t going to call too. Remember I said I wasn’t going to push things anymore, so I chilled and played the silence game with him
Friday, three whole days and yet no word from him. WTF? I could understand him blanking me out for one day or two but three whole days?!! Which kain vexing be dat now? Then I started getting scared. I hope nothing had happened to him. Maybe he was sick or had an accident. Several thought were flying through my head. I couldn’t keep playing the silence game. I had to call to find out if he was okay. So I called.
“Hello, are you okay? Why haven’t I heard from you for three days now?”
His voice was low “I was upset with you…you scolded me”
WTF?!!!
“You were upset with me? That’s why you didn’t call? That is so childish and am very disappointed, well I just called to make sure you are okay and I can see you are so I guess we’ll talk later, bye bye”
I ended the call.
I didn’t know if I felt better or worse after calling him. He sounded so fickle telling me the reason he didn’t call me for three whole days was because he was upset with me. Upset for what? I didn’t know! Somehow, it opened my eyes a little. Those three days I didn’t hear from him were pure hell for me. I longed to hear his voice every minute and there he was telling me he didn’t call because of the little argument we had. I felt so sad. What that said to me was that probably we weren’t operating on the same frequency at all. My fears all this while were being confirmed gradually. It was pretty obvious now that he didn’t care about me as much as I did for him.

Anyway, later he called to tell me that he had said that to me then because he was somewhere then and he couldn’t talk at the time I had called. He said there were things he was dealing with and he would tell me about it later. I said okay and he dropped the phone.
I didn’t hear from him all through the rest of that Friday.
Saturday morning,i woke up with him on my mind. I hadnt seen him for almost two weeks now and was really missing him so I sent him a text.
“Are you pushing me away? Is that it? Tell me”
He didn’t reply immediately. Hours later, his reply came.
“Why would I push you away? There’s some stuff going on with me now. I know how you feel but don’t worry, I‘ll tell you everything”
There was nothing I could do except to wait for him to tell me what this thing that was coming between us was.

Later that evening he called and gave me some explanation on how he was having some issues at work, something that had happened at the previous bank where he used to work had come up again and it could threaten his job in his current bank if he didnt resolve it without their knowing. It sounded really serious and I got the feeling that he wasn’t telling me everything.
I didn’t know what to make of the whole situation. I mean, even if he was having problems, shouldn’t that be the more reason to call me and talk to me about it. I thought being in a relationship with someone you care about means having someone to share your joys and pains with.
So that’s the situation now guys. I hardly get to speak to him on the phone cos his phone is almost always switched off and it seems like ages since we last spoke at our usual happy hour(middle of the night).
I know I still care about him deeply but am not sure about ús and where all this is leading.
Will just wait it out, I guess.

I have to run now. Will be back to give you more gists on X and others. Sorry i havnt been able to visit all my blog pals, no be my fault abeg, na work abi if them sack me, una go employ me?

take care for now y'all!

Why cant we stop arguing?

Hey peeps!
Whassup?
I know I have been MIA for a while now. Its just that there hasn’t been anything much to blog about. I have been keeping things on the low for a while coupled with the fact that yours truly was down with the most common illness in Naija-Malaria!

I am getting better now, although not fully recovered but it is well, No fear.

Things with O are okay except for the fact that it’s like recently we are almost arguing over everything…even the silliest things. I guess as emotions get more involved even the littlest things begin to seem important. Like for instance, he drops me off after a date and I fail to call him later to find out if he got home safe and he takes offence or I tell him I don’t feel well and I expect that he’ll come down to my office to find out how am doing but he says he’s very busy and cant make it to see me, then I take offence.

You know, silly things really but we now start arguing and next thing we are angry, we end the conversation(usually on the phone) and the rest of the day is spoilt for me. Anytime we have our tiffs, am always miserable and he says it’s the same for him too. Why can’t we just stop these fights then? It beats me. One minute we are apologizing to each other and promising not to make each other mad again and the next we are back to arguing again. I admit i am spoilt when it comes to relationships. I have always been in relationships where I am doted on and pampered but O doesn’t really do all those doting and pampering sturves which gets me all sulky and moody.

Maybe like uzezi and oluwadee said, its better to be with a man who loves you more than you do him but then again I want to also be crazily in love with my man. I guess being in love goes hand in hand with the heart aches too. Maybe I just have to get used to it.

As I type this post, O and I are not talking and its killing me. I want to call him and hear his voice but then again I want him to call me first and apologize for making me sad. Why is love so complicated, why?

To other matters,
I haven’t seen B.G since the last time but we still communicate over the phone. He seems to have gotten over our last discussion and still believes that god will bring us back together. He tells me he is praying over things and he has handed it over to God.

K is still there as always…never giving up. He seems to be getting the message better now cos he has been telling me that he feels I am in love with someone else from my attitude. I affirmed it hoping he would finally leave me alone but whosai…dude is even more determined than ever to win my heart.

Then there is Bobo Nice. I haven’t had time to talk about him yet. I’ll probably do that in my next post.
I have to go now peeps.
See you around!