Pain...

Guys...
My heart just broke as in literally shatter to pieces.
I thought it was already broken and I was trying to put the pieces back together...
I thought the worst was over and it could never get any more painful or worse...
But the pain I feel right now is even worse than the one I felt before.
The ache I feel in my heart is so real...
So real, I can almost touch it.

I didnt know he still had the power to hurt me like this.
Was it that somewhere in my heart, I still hoped...
or maybe somehow I still cared even when I told myself otherwise?

Why then did that little phrase I just saw on his FB page affect me so?
Why did I feel like the world was pulled off from under my feet when I read it?
I wont lie...
My eyes stung from trying to hold back the tears.
My heart beat increased from anxiety...

It was only a short phrase...
a short phrase on his FB page...
a short phrase that hurt me and broke my heart all over again...
A short phrase that said...
"In a relationship"

Of course, I didnt expect him to live a hermit's life.
I even suspected it was another woman all along...
but it still came as a shock(don't know why)

I confess
I secretly hoped...
Prayed...
That he was pining away...
missing me terribly...

Lol...
A silly wish, I know

But guys...

He used to profess undying love to me...

We made all those crazy plans for our future together...

Its only natural that I feel this way, right?

You know that part that hurts the most?

All through the months we dated, he never put it up there
on Facebook that he was in a relationship.

Maybe I should just take him off my FB friends list.

What do y'all feel?

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