STUCK AT D STATION.

Had a depressing weekend.

Right from Saturday when Bobo Nice handed me that card...his traditional wedding card , I haven't been able to shake off this feeling....this feeling of being left behind.

Of cos, I smiled and gushed about how happy I was for him but deep down, I felt an ache.

Don't get me wrong, I never wanted to marry him and it's not like am regretting not saying yes to his proposal. NO.

Just that well...i just feel...I don't know how to explain this sad feeling!

To worsen things he told me he was travelling this weekend to attend the wedding of a mutual friend of ours.

It was't just the fact that I wasn't invited to the wedding that saddened me...

It just feels like the train has left me behind.

SANTA, I ONLY WANT ONE THING!

Okay...okay...I know it's not the best comeback post but pls bear with me people. Will be back soon hopefully.

Pain...

Guys...
My heart just broke as in literally shatter to pieces.
I thought it was already broken and I was trying to put the pieces back together...
I thought the worst was over and it could never get any more painful or worse...
But the pain I feel right now is even worse than the one I felt before.
The ache I feel in my heart is so real...
So real, I can almost touch it.

I didnt know he still had the power to hurt me like this.
Was it that somewhere in my heart, I still hoped...
or maybe somehow I still cared even when I told myself otherwise?

Why then did that little phrase I just saw on his FB page affect me so?
Why did I feel like the world was pulled off from under my feet when I read it?
I wont lie...
My eyes stung from trying to hold back the tears.
My heart beat increased from anxiety...

It was only a short phrase...
a short phrase on his FB page...
a short phrase that hurt me and broke my heart all over again...
A short phrase that said...
"In a relationship"

Of course, I didnt expect him to live a hermit's life.
I even suspected it was another woman all along...
but it still came as a shock(don't know why)

I confess
I secretly hoped...
Prayed...
That he was pining away...
missing me terribly...

Lol...
A silly wish, I know

But guys...

He used to profess undying love to me...

We made all those crazy plans for our future together...

Its only natural that I feel this way, right?

You know that part that hurts the most?

All through the months we dated, he never put it up there
on Facebook that he was in a relationship.

Maybe I should just take him off my FB friends list.

What do y'all feel?

:(

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